I’ve kinda stopped drawing in my sketchbook because school demanded digital painting and more recently, oil painting. It’s part laziness and fear that what I imagine will not be as perfectly translated onto paper. I see the masters and other great (living) artists who blow me away and everything they create, I accept it in my mind. My stuff is just too inferior, and I know I’m supposed to be working (probably until my death) towards that goal of being masterful. And beyond that, I’m also struggling with the “entertainment” stuff and the “illustration” stuff… I really really enjoy doing the traditional figure/painting/drawing and getting into to gesture, color, and light..all that good stuff that produces eyegasms. Entertainment stuff… we’re too quick! We don’t sit down, research, digest, and think about subtlety. We don’t have time… what we have is quantity. That can be a good or bad thing. I’m not particularly fond of hundreds of thumbnails when you’re only going to pick one. And I think, wouldn’t it be nicer if people just calmed down and took more time with it all? And then I think, maybe people in the entertainment industry have just been forced into the deadline mentality, and they’re okay with quick concept art because directors are the vision and changing something in the story scraps 50 million paintings a group of people have already completed. Do most entertainment industry people tend to separate their professional/commercial work and their own personal work(if any)? I see myself working for a company or whatever eventually, and hopefully having my own studio, or otherwise working on my own illustrations or what have you. I’m overwhelmed, once again, not by the choices before me, but my feelings on entertainment vs illustration. The lines between ent’t and ill’n aren’t so cut and clean but, it sure feels that way sometimes. The most important thing is to be a good storyteller, whatever it is I do. But that shit’s hard too. SO WHAT DO I DO!?
What do I know, I’m just a novice. I won’t get really “good” until I’m 60. And until then, let’s just enjoy the ride.